Will little Noah tell me what I want?

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Originally uploaded by Alison J. L.

So Korea is a weigh station for me. I wasn't ready to settle somewhere and make any decisions about the rest of my life, wanted to travel, and needed to make so money...so here I am. This was the last of my plans, and now I'm not sure what I'll be doing after this contracted year is up. I like it enough right now to consider another year, but miss home more than I thought I would. That's saying something since my circle of friends and family is so awesome. I've always had some sort of plan and am finding it hard to just be. Living in the moment entails considering my past and future, if I'm being honest with myself. I've realized that over the last few years I have lost touch with what I genuinely want....even vaguely. I've had dreams about my teeth falling out, about a beach that slips out from under me in an icy tidal wave and an assortment of other bizarre situations that make me think I'm trying to tell myself something. I just wish I could be clearer on what.